with my eyes..... i see everything..... destruction.. peace... hatred..

It's a long rollercoaster ride...

We can always blame life to be unfair and unjust.. things just don't usually happen the way we picture it. I have grown to understand this as I grow older... Well, what we can do is to continue walking, continue to love each other and support each other.

It's heartbreaking to see someone you love so dearly suffer so much becos of various reasons. Many times, even the mighty me breaks down. Am I that cursed, I asked.

Strangely, everytime I encounter such things, the very next day I will be alright and see things in a different view again. In life, we have to accept what is right in front of us, though if there's a chance I can turn back time I will at whatever costs.

We shed tears, we try nto to make each other worry, we try not to make others troubled. In the end, it's all about love. I believe we all have the patience to paint the perfect picture in due course....

Will God see what we are doing and trying to achieve? Can the Angels give us a hand when we need it? I believe so... well meanwhile, I shall take the temp post as Angel Ray to those who needs it HAHAHAHAHA!

*Life is a learning process, not a whining process =P

Been a long time since I blogged, many things have happened in these short months which I shall not elaborate. I never wished this much for a year to pass by quickly. It's a indeed sway year for me..

Anyway, to SD! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Although it's a little late, rest assured we didn't forget about you hehehe..

BH! Good luck for your upcoming 7th December paper... And of cos to your love life after your paper is done hehe..

IM TRULY TIRED THIS YEAR! Gosh, how many obstacles must I jump over this year man.. geez.. luckily still going strong with true friends with us..

Lastly, Dear I LOVE U! =D

Sigh, was damn giddy yesterday and today i felt like im floating...

Hmmm, gonna take some rest after this post..

As I cannot manage to travel to the central to see the company appointed medical grp.. decided to see the one jus opposite my street..

Goodness me, a 5 minute consultation for giddiness ends up with tons of medicine and a $75 bill... almost fainted.. that's about 1 day's pay gone.. tch those bloodsucking doctors.. Well sort of gotta a blood test as well to see my sugar lvl.. thank god its normal...

Many things happened for the past few weeks, dear getting knocked down etc.. I'm just too tired to think now...

And now comes the recession, wonder if I might get the sack whahahaha...

Tuesday, 23 Sept 2008

I promised I will get some good rest today. So Er Jie and Da jie, dont worry k.

Dear too, SD and BH @ LSD too.

May I rest in peace now hahahaha...

Ok I'm talking nonsense now.. Need.. to... rest...

Approximately 12.15am on 22 Sept 08, Monday, while me and my girlfriend was crossing the road to McDonalds for our late late dinner, something unexpected happened.

For those who got the first hand news, yes, a errant and apparently drunk cab driver tried to beat the red light and knocked down my girlfriend while I narrowly escaped unharmed.

My heart stopped for awhile as I witnessed the whole damn thing happened... The next thing I did was holding my dear's hand and checked if she's alright and conscious. Thereafter, I proceeded to stop the driver and pulled him out of the cab. Heated words exchanged though the obvious fault lies with the driver. Why?

- We were crossing when the green man was up
- he was drunk apparently
- Many witnesses were nearby too

Minutes passed so slowly as I waited for the police and ambulance to arrive at the scene. Thankfully the cab wasn't driving at a very fast speed when it knocked down my girl. While the cabbie tried to deny all faults, I spurted angry words / vulgarities at him till passerby have to stop me from actually going physical on the uncle.

Shortly after the authorities arrived, I followed the ambulance to the hospital. By this time it's almost 1am.

After some check-ups and x-ray, my dear was diagnosed with a fractured wrist. Her poor wrist was swollen and my heart was shattering every moment of that night. Luckily, other than additional cuts and bruises, no other serious injuries.

After making payment, we went QiJi at CGH for our late late dinner cum breakfast. My dear was enjoying the treatment I'm giving her as her master hand was in a cast and I have to feed her haha. We lodged a police report at CGH and sent her home to rest (Note: her parents do not know about the accident yet)

So I sent Ah Wen home and told her parents what happened, some nagging and cursing followed hehe... Stayed for a little while and went home as I was real exhausted from the running about and my tired heart which was beating at a world record speed for the last few hours.

Reached home about 4am with my body and mind about to crumble from the ordeal. Tried to get some rest after much nagging from many many people.. Unfortunately the minute I close my eyes, the incident repeated itself in my mind (God damn, mind is really a amazing asshole). Rolled over in my bed repeated till morning 8am-ish, when I finally decided to drink my cough syrup to knock myself out for the day....

Didnt get much rest either, or maybe my body / mind was overworked... Couldnt recover by Tuesday morning (TODAY) and gotta extend my unpaid leave for more rest.. Sorry again for any inconvenience caused. If I can choose, I will stay with dear for the whole 6 weeks, unpaid or what, it doesnt matter... but I guess that can never happen as she will nag me to death!

Anyway, I would like to take this chance to thank all the kind souls who stopped and helped in some ways when the accident happened, and also to the people who are very concerned about us (Dont worry! We are fine ok?)

I walk a lonely dark path down the road...

With monsters and dangers lurking in every corner...

Some people tell me it's very dangerous trying to achieve the best out of everything..

I tell them it's to appease my soul and to have minimal regrets..

Definitely there are people and obstacles trying to stop you in this bumpy road...

As long as you have the desire and determination, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!

I will discard the obstacles and pity people who try to change who we are, because I know they will never attain true happiness / satisfaction in stopping us....

Bonds are something so strong and invisible to the eye, it takes alot of pain and sacrifices to really crack them..

On this road down, will you form a bond with me?

On this road down, will you try to stop me?

On this road down, will you join me in my quest?

Together, we march forward... Nothing stands in our way..

Dialogue:

Child: *smiles sadly*

Siblings: Why are you smiling?!

Adult: Could you please share what you are really feeling with us? We are family right?

In the end, acting strong wasn't the solution... In the end, the child was the weakest..

It's a fight that we share, it's a bond that will never be easily broken. Friendship can bring you miles. Learn to rely on friends sometimes, no matter how strong you are... Deep inside, we are still a child..

2 Sept 2008 - Worked OT for the day, my dear brought food for me! She cooked it (yummy!) very touched at her gesture..

3-5 Sept 2008 - Pretty stressed out by work, anger tend to get the better of me these few days.. lots of things happened in between.

I apologise for my attitude for this week. I probably got sick of being taken for granted, the devil in me is finding its way out AGAIN! muahahahahaha

Fatigue never leaves me this week, seems like I have wasted tons of energy on my work. Can't even enjoy a night's out without feeling tired.

Watch out peeps, there might be some changes to me for next week. For those who likes to irritate me, BEWARE!

5 long years have gone, come 1st Sept 08, it will be me and my dear's 5th year anniversary.

Hmm a very unique and busy anniversary as it is also.. :-

(a) Dear's father's bday;

(b) our firm's 53rd anniversary (like I care?);

(c) Nana's last day in our firm (sobz); and

(d) Our firm's 1st day in our new premises!

We were given an off day to recuperate from the pre-move operation to our new premises today. So I gladly took this opportunity to celebrate me and my dear's anniversary in advance!

We went comex and took a quick tour over all the stations. Nothing much to buy though lots of tempting offers hehehe.

Wanted to go Hanabi for our dinner but when I called for reservation at 4.30pm, it was already fully booked-.-

So instead, we went to Waraku @ Marina Square for dinner! For some reasons, the salmon was extremely delicious and fresh today.. Yummy! While eating, I unveiled dear's present to me...

GOODNESS ME! It is something I love! And have been looking for ages! A shirt with cufflings! (for acting cool!). I love the color, love the design and very touched that my dear got it for me... It's from a brand called Domanchi (no idea what that brand is though.. abit suang gu here..) but love it!

Thank you dear for the shirt, love it. But pls don't spend so much on me next time hehe..

However due to fatigue, we have to go back early... but I was a very happy person.. Sorry for not being able to spend a little more time with you today..

Dear ah, hope you like what I give you.. Nothing much, just something from my heart and thoughts ;)

Have you ever felt you were standing alone at the top of a dark mountain, looking down at the dark side.

You have 2 choice:

- To leap down to the dark
- To approach the light

Which 1 will you choose?

---------------------------------

Sometimes things just don't turn out the way you wish to. Sometimes being the good one brings you more disasters.

In life, we sometimes have to be the "bad" guy for the greater good. Planning, looking at a broader horizon. Your sacrifice might turn someone's life to a better one. They might detest you for what you've done, you will suffer in silence and stand alone in the darkness. They might not appreciate what you have done, but you know deep down it's the right choice, the better one I would say. In life, sometimes you are given 2 wrong choices, you just have to choose the better one.

We, who suffer in silence, can only hope 1 day they see the light that we wish them to see. That's more than enough for us.

We, are the Dark Knights in this world. Do not detest us, accept the new revolution of good and evil. Things ain't simple no more, we will continue to play mind games in order to fight the evil. We are willing to be consumed by darkness to provide a beam of hope for others.

Pity us not, for we are strong enough to handle darkness. Put your trust in us, and we will strive to make things better.

=)

Letting go is hard... but people are trying to pull me out from the darkness again...

From this I know, I will never walk alone.... I must not disappoint them...

Sorry for causing so much trouble peepz :)

One could wonder why banks issue credit cards easily even though you know the customer never pays / never pay on time. They never think of the suffering families behind their high interest rates. In my opinion, there should be a strict rule to stop this problem once and for all.

My family too, has suffered from such a situation. Worse still, we can't stop the bank from issuing new credit cards to my D. The toll on us is getting worse, and the money? We never seen nor use a single cent... All we've been doing was just paying the minimum and continuing paying to keep our house from being auctioned off. Well, I will never know.. maybe one day I return home to see it being sealed off and I will have no place to stay. Thinking of this makes me really depressed.

If only I have more money or maybe hit the TOTO... I will definitely move out of this house which means nothing more than a sleeping place for me..

So something for greedy ppl that are earning their customers' interest right now, "FUCK OFF". I wish you know and see what's happening, I curse you feel our pain, our darkness and sometimes even desperation. Usually ppl who suffer from this are the families, not your customer.

If only 1 day I can break away from this chain of pain, I'm looking forward to that day... When our tears will stop flowing...

Well, been forced to do this since I'm "Tagged". Oh well here goes!

No particular order though..

1) Spending time with my dear dear;

2) Making ppl laugh;

3) feeling that I'm can be of help to others;

4) Getting praises from satisfied clients;

5) eating my favourite food!;

6) playing with my huge family of hamsters;

7) get a windfall (muahahaha);

8) WEEKENDS!;

9) SLACKING!;

10) Being a good friend to the best I can be.

Alright! DONE!

I will gather some of my thoughts and hopefully blog a review on the movie "Money No Enough 2" soon.

As promised by my dear, I get to taste her cooking yesterday!

A simple pasta set with soup.. yummy, although the carbonara tasted abit funny but all is good! =D

Chilled for a little while before we left her house for dinner and movie.. we were planning to watch "The Mummy - Tomb of the dragon emperor" at a earlier time slot but cinema was full! damn it and we settled for "X-Files: I want to believe".

Ok this movie is draggy k! For people who are interested in watching it in the cinemas, I advise you to stay away and buy the DVD instead. Both me and my dear almost fell asleep towards the end after we figured out the plot. However it was nice to see the x-files characters back in the big screen again.

One crucial disappointment, this movie ain't have no aliens!

Rating: 3/10

After watching the movie (ended about 11.30pm), we were bored so i suggested going for another movie! Looking through the time slots, the next timing for another movie was THE MUMMY! Yippee, movie was at 11.45pm so we took a quick toilet break and back into the cinema we go!

After the long and draggy X-Files movie, both of us were hoping Mummy can perk us up again with their hype. Indeed it was pretty decent, lots of graphics and pretty lots of funny scenes too, especially their humor. However, in this movie you don't really see much of Jet Li flaunting his fighting skills, which is of cos pretty disappointing. His scenes are mostly done up by graphics to make him almighty. Talking about Almighty, you movie goers might wanna see how he died.. which in my opinion, not so great for the almight emperor.

Rating: 7/10

Honestly still prefer Dark Knight hehe.... OUR NEXT MOVIE SHALL BE MONEY NO ENOUGH 2!

I shall start off by saying that you can never fully understand one person just by hearsay. Well I will quote some examples:-

In a working environment, our judgements are usually based on perceptions and hearsay. Until you try to know the person, work with the person, then you will slowly understand why he/she was acting in that way etc.

But time is a cruel thing, and people tend to realise that only when the time is almost up... Why must such things always happen? I don't have an answer...

Of course I know the seniors in my work place are gossiping and also backstabbing me to a certain extent due to my working attitude etc. Honestly, I won't lie to say I'm not totally affected. However after sharing things with someone that I rarely or did not try to know previously, I learnt a huge bunch of things in a short span of time. Not only she showed me how blind and how foolish I was, I also realised that I should control my anger. So let me take this opportunity to thank you for breaking a new path for me. But just when we are getting to know each other, you chose to depart. Heartbreaking but all the best in your future endeavors!

Also take this opportunity to say sorry to the people I have hurt over the years. Be it that I was mean to you, sacarstic or even neglected you. However, I would wanna reserve some of my critics to some of you hopeless people out there, pouncing on every chance to take advantage of the good will of some nice souls. You shall get your karma soon =)

However, a note to those who do not understand me at all and only judge me by hearsay and rumors. I will prove to you people through my own way that you were wrong. I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I will lead you under my wings. I will make full use of this short-term chance as a representative to show you what I am really capable of. I will be pushy, I will be in control, and I will help anyone that requires help to see this move through smoothly. I will not belittle your hopes of me, I will make you proud.

Lastly, I thank you people (you know who you are) for giving me this opportunity and entrust this responsibility to me. For you, I will fight on. As you have given me a new path to walk on. In your absence, I will try not to disappoint you as I much as I can.

Thanks alot! (mimics a certain someone)

Went out yesterday with my dear dear for our usual weekend cheap thrills. However this weekend wasn't exactly cheap hehe.

We managed to convince ourselves to pull our lazy asses to Plaza Singapura (I hate to go there for some undisclosed reason) and look to renew our anniversary ring! Our anniversary is coming up and we decided to get 1 for that special day. Ok, we chose our ring at Couple Lab, ehh the ring is kinda special, hard to explain.. will have to wait till Tuesday for collection (becos of the engravings)!

Damage done: $98-00 (it's still damn worth it considering it is a strong symbol of our love after 5 yrs)

Picture will be added once I collect our rings!

Then we got hungry and settled down at LJS for dinner. Pfft, for some reason, people around us are talking exceptionally loud and really irritating. Ate as fast as we can and got out to our next stop!

Ah Hah! we found a shop clearing their warehouse stocks! Both of us managed to choose 2 t-shirts (2 for $10-00 leh!). Goodness me what a bargain!

After much walking, it's time to travel back to tampines for our movie, Dark Knight! Well if you wondered why didn't we watch it at Cathay or GV @ PS, it's actually thanks to those "loud" diners at LJS, we learnt that tickets were sold out hahahaha.

Earlier timings were full so we chose the 11.25pm show. Went to do our "stock up" aka groceries shopping at NTUC. Hmmm dear dear have been trying out her cooking, can't wait to eat the pasta she cook! But not sure whether I will ever get to try out =..(
Talking about Pasta, we caught one of our colleague eating at Pastamania! And she still claims she won't eat pasta till we move to our new office.. tch such weak will.. LOL!

- Shall cut the chase and go straight to the movie summary -

DARK KNIGHT


Finally it's time for the badass movie that I've heard so much about!

Ok, gonna make it short and sweet. ITS DAMN FREAKING GOOD! EVEN BETTER THAN IRONMAN!
This is by far, the best movie of a superhero ever! The plot was fantastic and exciting. Joker's acting was superb I would say, a very evil and psycho criminal! (Rest in peace Heath Ledger, it was a superb performance) Well, I'm not a big batman fan but I do know that in the comics / cartoons, he is so-called a Gotham crime fighting hero. However, the director choose to portray batman as a more complicated character in the movie version, which in my opinion, was pretty fresh and turn out really good. I love the ending especially, when a hero has to make tough decisions and also sacrifice his reputation to reignite the hope of the citizens..

It's just the same as real life, hao ren nan zuo! You can never please anyone, but a truly kind and fair person will work things to the good of all and not claim any credit. He/she rather be condemned, misunderstood or even hated by others, but as long as the decisions were right, that's enough for the person. Even if He/She has to live in the darkness and embrace the darkness, he/she still gives a ray of hope for others in trouble..

Alright you folks, am gonna get more rest today and hope that I don't sound like a duck tmr for KTV!

OK! Another reflection post!

MISTAKES

Sigh, I realised I am too gullible to clients.. While trying to help them with their ever endless queries to the best I can, sometimes it's just aint enough! So one fine day, I neglected a electronic mail from one of my client and probably didn't revert to her, caused a few headaches and stress for my superior. I'm deeply sorry for not being at my best this time... guess this is what ppl mean by "Shit happens!".

I will strive and I will fight on, be at my very best to every client I meet. You may dislike the way I work or you maybe a spoilt rich brat from the day you are born. But, as long as you are my client, I will give you my best out from my work, the fastest response and a reliable boy you can look to and rely on. I will show you I'M DA BEST!

Final note on this topic: I will be extra careful and try not to disappoint again ^^


RESPONSIBILITY

This concerns my new post as a Representative for my department.

I'm acting that it's nothing but I'm pretty excited over this new role. Although sad to say, it means more sai kang for me hahahahah!

It's been some time since I tried something new, a new role to fit in and help others around me. Well, I accepted this role because another of my colleague is getting older and might have difficulties doing some of the more tougher chores.

And wala! My first real meeting as a official rep today. Discussed about how we are going to make our move to our soon-to-be "new" office in August. Hmmm, I will say I'm wrong to judge some of my other colleagues at some point. Working with them actually inspires me and also so-called shed a new light on my view on them... Well, too early to judge but so far so good. Hope I can fit in this role as perfect as my senior that I'm taking over!

First task, nagging people to start packing. The other department rep and me have sort of discussed and come up with a plan to make things easier and smooth for others. It might be rush becos of time constraint, but I will help as much as I can!

Talk about responsibities hahaha, having to plan things for the department is quite tedious!

Last note for this topic: Thanks to all the people who put their trust and hope on me, I will try not to disappoint!

Ok, I shall start off by informing you ppl I was pretty sick on Thursday and Friday.. Actually now still a little sick...

While I was away from work for the 2 days, seems like many things happened.. Some junior staff pissed off my boss, my work became urgent and needed ppl to cover for me (oh dear?) etc. While ppl are slogging and having their torturous working days, I'm lying on my bed resting.. =(

OK, heard my Ah Jie (LEE & LEE 1) helped me with the amendments of some document during my absence and stayed till pretty late that particular day.. I WAS SOOO GUILTY! Even though of taking cab down to cover my work for a few hours.. however I was stopped by my another Ah Jie and my boss.. Sigh.

All I can say is THANKS AH JIE and another helpful friend of mine Julian. Oh by the way boy, don't be so obliging and help others do their work in FULL. You should know who am I refering to. Don't burn your Saturdays for her!

Ah, talking about Saturday.. I felt better and went back to work, trying to zap 300 sets of the finalised document that I mentioned earlier. Can you believe that I took almost 3 hours to zap just 200 sets of it? Goodness me indeed, and I used 2 machines to do that! Phew! Went back to rest even more as I felt a little groggy hehe...

Well, I'm blessed to have such friends to help me when I'm down. The least I can do for you ppl is that I promise I will try to be there for you gals and guys always! Notice I said try.. because sometimes I might not be able to be physically and mentally there with you throughout depending on situation. Rest assured, I will stick to my word!

Hmmm, still having blocked nose while typing this post.. better get more rest before kena nagged by my Jies again..

Cheers!

Ok first to start off by reminding myself next week is my last ongoing enbloc completion! (hip hip hurray!)

Seen a couple of my friends' blogs talking about reflections and I thought why not do 1 myself as well hehe.. so here it goes!

DECISIONS BEYOND OUR CONTROL

Regarding my colleague: What can you do when you are reluctantly put under someone you barely know, what's worse.. you heard very unsettling rumors about your new boss? Management ain't helping and puts you to work with him/her because it's sort of a "promotion"? But is it true? Is there something more complex than this?

Seems so to me, after considering all the factors affecting possible decisions. Such a opportunity just seems too good and unreal to me. If the new boss is really up to something cheeky or funny, I probably might have to rely on my devilish side and even my fist to warn him/her to keep out.

UNSETTLING TIMES

Spoke to one of my friend on some of my unsettling factors happening to me at the moment. Finally decided that I need a break of maybe ranging from weeks to a month to recover and find back my old self.

Will it benefit me? Yes and maybe no... I'm just afraid I might lose my drive to work and eventually lose myself again.

But then again, I've been through lots of pain, suffering and even darkness. I believe I will stand back up stronger and even more motivated. I must repay to all who have helped me, believed in me all these years. I MUST NOT GIVE UP ON MYSELF AND ON MY LOVED ONES!

JUDGEMENT

Sometimes how I wish I can pass judgement on evil people around me! If only I have a book like "Death Note", just by writing one's name and cause of death.. The feeling of being able to control someone's pathetic life is great muahahahah.

It might be plain evil but I just can't bear to see people suffer insults after insults. People suffering because others are plain stupid or plain difficult to handle.

If only I have the power to judge..

MONETARY PROBLEMS

Life is funny, some people just have the luxury of being rich. Some work their whole life and never be rich. Some spend money like they print money, some scrimp and save to support their own lives.

For me, I'm pretty content though pretty restricted on my overall savings. For me it's easy, spend if I feel like it and worth the money. Save more for the future (with my ah wen) and be happy with what I have. Although it's really hard I admit, but worrying too much doesn't help brighten your already stressed life.

For people who know me, please don't treat me like a poor boy. I can manage my life at the moment thanks to you peepz! Please do not pamper me too much! I will feel really really bad... =(

Let's just say I am able to carry the heavy stone at the moment? =)

LASTLY, for unhappy friends out there with any sorts of problems they are facing right now. Don't fred, things happened for a reason, it's up to you making the right decision and grow from there. Try not to worry too much and live life to the fullest, msot importantly, be happy!

PHEW, what a hectic week I have!

Problems and problems arise for the whole of this week, busy counselling, giving encouragement and advice to others... Perhaps that makes me look so tired and shag this whole week.

Ponder about alot of things nowadays as well.. While counselling others, I'm picking up pieces of myself along the way.. Felt a little lost for awhile at times but things have to move on.

There are so many things I can help with but there are oso so many I can't. And usually the ones that I can't are the ones that hit me the most.. So helpless at times, so frustrated at times. Luckily true friends are always there for you, though they are also very tired with things on their end.

I have this friend who said "Sometimes you don't put too much feelings to a friendship / relationship, so you won't get hurt". Often, I put in too much effort and feelings in things I do. Reflecting on what she said, it's true in a way (defensive way) but deep down inside I don't think it's right. Without putting in effort, you don't see results. Without putting in feelings, you won't feel emotions. Mix them together and you get a INCOMPLETE you. Somewhat strong and defensive but empty deep within.

Then again, different ppl have different views. I can say I'm facing some problems myself, however I'm not giving up just yet! Never ever I want to see close ones end up like my old self. It hurts to see the shadow of me suffering in darkness.... Scary to even look back...

So my dear friends / close ones (you know who you are), please don't give up and don't isolate yourself and close up your inner world. I'm here to help and so are your friends.. We can work towards a happy ending if we try to...

Signing out...

Ahem, movie poster attached!

The movie outing with my dear dear, my er jie (Sze Yee) and my da jie (Jolene) was pretty fun! Ok, a little summary of the movie:-

Predictable storyline with of cos the main char (the cute doggy) died. The movie is overall ok for a tear or too (yes I shed tears! I'm so full of loveeee!!) Might make u reflect on your life, and also your love for your pets...

Ok now for the irritating part, there's this gal sitting infront of us... then came the "sad" part of the movie, she freaking cried out LOUD! oh dear spoilt all of our mood to cry.. pfft, even tears couldnt flow due to the annoying and I would say hideous crying... After the movie, we went for a short chat at MacDonalds with dear ordering the fragrant jasmine tea (a little diluted this time round). Chit chat till almost 11pm and we went off..

Hope we can do this this some time again!

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等
你就是我等的那个人

男人男人
女人女人
多么希望你是对的人

Had the biggest headache yesterday morning, thus unable to go to work..

On Wednesday, I felt that I could faint anytime during dinner at Waraku.. Wa, never been so serious before.. Doctor told me to rest more, and try to relax.. Stress from work / personal life affects..

Well, I can't really control the stress at work and life isn't it? hahahaha.. how I wish life is so simple... 9 to 6 job, knock off, go home play games, got time go out with frens and my dear.. get HIGH pay (i wish..) no family problems! That will help...

Felt a little emptiness in myself nowadays... Seems that I cannot accomplish everything I wish to.. My desire for my goals are fading away at a rapid speed...

P.S ITS FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

Going to catch 10 promises to my dog this evening! wooohooo!!

I am very fortunate to have wonderful friends cum sisters pampering me and showering me with concern, wanna take this opportunity to say thank you all out there!

Not only learn alot of work related stuffs, also learnt new things about friendships.. letting go and of course sharing burdens...

Not to worry Jies! I'M THERE FOR YOU ALL!!!

Problems are in everyday's life, it's how we look at it and how we deal with it.. heartbreaks are not uncommon, sadness sometimes cant be avoided, disappointments are unexpected. We have gone through pretty tedious times together now, I'm glad to see my sister improving alot since last time...

Last but not least, DO NOT CARRY BURDEN BY YOURSELF! We are created to share each other's problems...

P.S - of coz my dear kept me sane in 1 piece, am grateful for that.. I will work hard for a better future for both of us ^^

Fragile things.. Friendship..

Hope we all grow stronger through experiences.. GAMBATTE sisters!

Interesting dinner outing with colleagues today..

First we had dinner at a organic "restaurant" at Bugis.. Surprisingly nice, but I think better don't eat too much and too often.. might get too "heated" from the herbs etc. But generally it was a pretty decent meal.

And due to overwhelming response on not being full, we went to our 2nd destination in Bugis, a vegetarian store this time.. I will say I'm pretty shocked at how much my 2 ah jies can eat ahahahah!! Hey its another good store, will bring my dear along to try the food there next time..

Had a nice laugh throughout the time together.. wow.. times like this aint so bad afterall.

Hmm... I wonder what's next to come...

Woah, all my ah jies and my dear dress so beautiful today!

Well, other than cracking some jokes and making a little noise, this wedding is a little... boring?

But well, we had fun taking photos, here are some of them attached!

Im the one in black with a STRIKING ORANGE HERMES TIE!








Wow, some said we took all the limelight away from the newly weds.. whahahahah.. I guess mission successful!

Anyways, it sucks as its about 30mins to Monday.. Work Work!

Off to sleep very soon!

Signing off...

Thanks ah jies for entertaining me today.. surely you see the difference in me now.. I kind of look shag yea?

But no worries, we shall take it 1 step at a time!

Looking forward to crash Ivy Wong's wedding tmr muahahahahah!

Me and my dear shall wear damn slack =\

ITS FRIDAY, just 9 hours to weekend!!! But what is this weird feeling I'm having... Neither sad nor happy... Just maybe a little frustrated on myself...

My heart wants to go to work but my mind is contradicting the decision....

Dear, I hope you are alright. Sorry for being useless, it pains me as well...

Sometimes, I just don't feel like talking to anyone... Because it seems that everything I said were either words consoling myself or lies... So don't blame me if I don't really reply your message / msn / chat these few days.. I need to find myself back...

Been feeling real tired from work...

Actually physically and mentally... sigh... how long can I survive....

Are people's expectations of me too high? Am I trying too hard to be perfect in everyone's eyes...?

May I rest in peace soon?

I feel like I'm fading away bit by bit.. consumed by the world's relentlessly vicious cycle...

A normal evening out for dinner with colleagues turned out to be a rainy day for one of our friends..

Life is so unpredictable... But it's good to know you have great buddies ya?

But looking at you crying made me ponder.. Am I one of those kind that hurts girls as well... For all these years, did I actually improved? Or did I turn out to be nothing more than a loser...

Am I really a changed man?