It's been a long time since I updated my blog.. well mainly because I was lazy.
Here's sharing a very emotional and strong MV sand by Chris Medina, a ousted American Idol participant with a very huge heart. Enjoy.
Google his name and be touched by his love story. The same one that has touched everyone that heard him sing.
It's coming to Christmas, a season of joy and laughter.. yet I got a bunch of shits today.
Got a surgery to extract my bottom left wisdom tooth last week and on MC for the week. Even though I'm on MC, I was worried about my work and even amended my work at home to help out my poor colleagues covering for me.
What the f*** do I get? A scolding from someone that didn't even understand what's going on with the file. Scolded me for not being prudent on the file? Wtf.. at work, I can say I always give the best even though I can manage time to gossip etc. Didn't I try to oblige everytime they need help? A split second there, I thought I wasn't part of the company.
Best thing is to reprimand me on things I already attended to probably a week ago and now that's its urgent. Infront of a new intern as well? humiliating me, rock bottom feeling today. Was I that useless? Perhaps so. Maybe I shall be one, maybe I should turn a blind eye sometimes. Maybe I should stop trying to make work easier for everyone as well. 3 years of hardwork seems like a waste of time to me now.
You implied I'm slow and probably incompetent enough to handle many files at one time? Fine, I will be that WAY. Not like I'm getting paid alot? I can't even save much with my current salary with all the commitments I have to my family.
Whining I am, but he will never see things poor chaps like me see. Due to unforeseen circumstances, I do not have the required paperworks, but I always try my best to make it through my ideas and my hardwork.
3 years down the road, easily I see many flaws in our company system. I know I'm cheap and maintainable, but to suck me dry of my energy and put me down like an animal just doesn't suit me. I held my anger in, I kept silent not because I admit it's my mistake, but it's futile to even argue as your mindset is already set. I was sentenced to a crime I didn't do.
The anger in me, the tears I've shed. I have seen all these in many of my colleagues. And today I finally realised why they are so hurt, disappointed etc.
TODAY shall be a new start for me, wishful thinking of me to even have a dream of a better future. Now that I've seen the judgement, I shall not dare to dream anymore. Ppl always say "What goes around, comes around" and I will surely repay the deeds.
Now, to look forward to 2010, with new perspectives and goals. I'm finally enlightened and shall not make the mistakes many did.
Quote from a Naruto Shippuden Movie:-
Once Sasuke asked me, "Do you know what if feels like to be left all on your own?"
Naruto replied, "I've always been on my own, you see..."
How nostalgic... can definitely link to that...
Many times in your life, you will feel a void.. a void that needs a temporary input..
I have recently bought a Full HD LCD TV, a little on impulse, but more to filling the empty void I have at home...
Try to make it a motivation to stay home happier... To some, such luxury is easy, but trust me, it was never a easy decision for me... Readjusting my budget is a must now.. Well at least, my brother is happy with the Full HD gaming.. and sort of pampered all of us in some ways..
Anyway, here are some highly recommended movies to watch:-