The sadness on my mum's face last week is something that haunt me ever since then... I cannot forget how those teary eyes look like and how she was looking at her almost empty bank account statement...
There's nothing left to be done but to wish that our agony will end... only upon the death of my dad... will that pain and suffering end..
There will come a time when things get out of hand, out of control and you lose sight of what you dream of having. Sacrifices made, tears shed, exploding anger...
It has come to such end for me... thanks all who have walked the path with me these few years..
My poor mum, who once again had to fork out her savings to save our house.. but even this time, she can't do much as she's practically dried up..
I am so frustrated, with all the money owing, nothing was spent on us.. how much I wanted a new TV to just play my XBOX 360, I have to brush that aside as I simply cannot afford to spend that kind of money.. So constrained and so empty inside me..
Told my mum, I will leave this empty house soon enough, shouldnt be a problem finding another place to stay...
There's simply no way to stop me from leaving now, enough is enough... and hopefully my brother will strive hard in his studies and earn big bucks to help me support my mum in future.. Meanwhile, I'm still saving for my ideal home.. This is a little hope that I still hold on to.. a hope for a better future..
Things changed, I will have to change as well, and to all those emo ppl out there... dont give up.. there's always ppl way worse than your situation.. for me example.. Don't dwell in things that you can't salvage, walk bravely to the future.. Stopping in time and being emo will only make you no better than an empty shell..
Better off dead I say.. what's a human without a soul..
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People asked why am I so quiet today at work.....
I can tell u I'm really calm after what happened and what was said about me and my colleagues. When I'm calm, that's not a good thing. Cos I am actually boiling inside and waiting for my opportunity to get my revenge.
We have nothing to do? True, I admit I'M DAMN FREE! Not because I have NOTHING to do, perhaps because I'm too fast at my work, I guess that's wrong? Why do others who "appear busy" are the good people Management? I dont blame you Mdm Lau, you are doing your job, but gotta get some facts right.
I believe our gang generate most of your freaking income these past 3 years. We are just being ourselves. Well yes I admit we got pretty rowdy at times. Ah that brings me to Ms Rotten Flower. Blaming us because of the noise you can't concentrate? well well, you always screw things up right and always so uptight.. No one likes your attitude, I am amazed how K tolerated you as her secretary... pretty tough on her huh?
Get jealous because of our work rate or because of us being so close? You dont have much friends do you? Did a guy even approach you before? I'm being mean here, because you have stepped over the line, just because I'm the Mr Nice Guy around doesn't mean I will tolerate nonsense on me and my friends. Get ready Ms Rotten Flower, Hell is coming =)
Well Well Management, I'm free huh? How about you increase my pathetic pay and I take on a Admin job cum Secretary job? Good deal for both of us? I get to lessen my monetary burden which is at a high right now and show you what I'm made of. God-speed. Dare to take me on the challenge? I prefer showing than just all talk.
Or maybe, the Management doesn't deserve us at all. Maybe it has come a time for us to all move on too.
P.S. I refuse to change my attitude, that's what makes me unique and different and I believed I'm not wrong! Yes, we ALL used the internet (who don't?) and chit chat... all u prefer hiring robots? Go ahead man, and RF, get the fuck out of my face.. you gonna get into deep shit for flaming all of us bitch!
For people who watched movie with me before knows I always pay full attention to good movies.
Why am I so focused some ask... Well, for that short 1 hour 30mins ish of time, I feel like I'm living in the movie itself, in a new adventure every movie... Some times to be adventurous, sometime to be another character you always wanted to be... Be a superhero and save the world... etc etc
For that short span of time, I am happy / sad / full of emotions and forget abt the harsh reality..... for that time, I'm truly free of troubles... just the movie and myself...
Do you feel the same? =)
